Hi everyone, Paul here and this is my first post on this site, I’m a patient with a TBI suffered 6 years ago but diagnosed about 6 months back.
My soon to be wife and I were in a head on collision back in October of 2011, I was pretty torn up in the accident, the physical damage has required 6 surgeries (body not brain). I was not diagnosed with a brain injury and what has happened is that with each surgery my brain got worse and my behavior got increasingly worse, after the fourth surgery my personality and behaviors took a major nose dive and my denial kicked in even more, I would try and justify and defend my every bad move. I truly thought I was going insane I could no longer handle stress and was flying off the handle at everything, concentration was incredibly difficult and I could barely work. I quite working thinking that it would be the cure all but things just got worse. Surgery 5 a year ago turned me into an unbearable to live with, total wack job, sending our relationship into a tailspin, then a sixth surgery this last June was the big kicker. I woke up from the surgery with no memory and in the worst shape of my life.
My surgery in June, had a multitude of ramifications but the biggest was the fact that I could no longer deny the TBI and have had the worst depression in my life, it’s like all of my defense mechanisms quite working and I could see all the bad behaviors that have driven my wife to kick me out of the house.
At this point I am living along with my 2 dogs, desperately seeking help, just got a treatment plan and feel like I’m on brick 1 of the yellow brick road. So much more to add but I feel fried at this point. Lost, alone and terrified. Paul.